Dear Orpheus,

I'm sorry.

I don't know what came over me.

I was afraid.

I'm not worthy of you. But I still love you, I think.

Don't try to find me again. You would be lonely for music. I want you to be happy. I want you to marry again. I am going to write out instructions for your next wife.

To My Husband's Next Wife

Be gentle.

Be sure to comb his hair when it is wet.

Do not fail to notice that his face flushes pink like a bride's when you kiss him.

Give him lots to eat.

He forgets to eat and he gets cranky.

When he's sad, kiss his forehead and I will thank you.

Because he is a young prince, and his robes are too heavy for him.

His crown falls down around his ears.

I'll give this letter to a worm. I hope he finds you.

Love Eurydice.

(Sarah Ruhl, Eurydice)

Death

A Death in the family can make you think about life....Which in turn can make you think about death, and just how short life really is, and how you need to make the most out of the time you have with the people around you, because you never know how long you have with a person or persons.

Nothing can ever make sense out of a situation in which a loved one dies, as much as we want it to, it just cannot be rationalized. Some one you loved has been taken out of your life, and nothing about that makes sense , so there is no use trying to understand it.

You have to keep on living, you have all of the memories with you in your mind, in pictures, and objects associated with the dearly departed, and even though they are a poor substitute, in a way they help keep them alive just that much longer

The worst part is having been unable to say goodbye.


Poppy, I love you and I'll miss you.

home

and its safe to say, i missed the rain

Airports

not so much fun when you spend roughly 8 hours in them

and i did just that last night/ this morning

to entertain myself i:

played ipod solitare for a good 45ish minutes....and lost every time

re-read the USF program

reorganized my carry on luggage

wrote and mailed some postcards

lost a dollar in the slot machines

played with a wheel chair

wandered aimlessly about the airport

wrote this list

attempted to do some sketches

read a bit of great expectations

stared off into space

wished i had decided on bring my ukulele as a carry on

watched a lady clean the escalator

eavesdropped

-'If i close my eyes you sound like matt damon!'- crazy lady to a brosif who was chatting up a girl

played the 'who in this area is going to san fransisco game'...the bus full of asian tourists? ahhhyup

and wished i had a buddy with me.....for things would have been a whole lot more entertaining....

oh i also wondered why one would want to get a tattoo of a dolphin on the extreme upper portion of ones backside....why would you want it to look like there is a dolphin jumping out of your bum?

and now i sit safely in san fransisco in my sisters apartment....now to shower and nap, cause ive been awake over 24hours now....and i feel really gross from traveling

im not dead...

im just in utah.....



for one more week, then i go to san fransisco.... then back to P-Yay!

Things I Dislike

Packing
Final Exams
Having To Get All Of Your Finals Finished Early
Leaving Family
Leaving Friends
Leaving Things Unsaid



Saying Goodbye.

Beauty

Often times its as simple as a cherry blossom in a brown glass bottle